Saturday, November 26, 2005
still rmb last year.. i worked at my uncle's shop..evryday, my auntie will cook 4 us.... act.. is because of me... my auntie will cook 4 evry1... normally, she wont cook.. will jus buy.. cause she's too busy... because she wanna me hav healthier meals, she cook 4 me.... i still rmb her laksilemak(wrong spellin).. e big drumstick... i ate 2 of it...cause it is so delicious... yummy!!!i still rmb..... tt day she cried in front of me.... she was so sad over cousin's death... although it has been 2 yrs... evry1 thought tt she is over wif it.... act.. she is not... she jus put a brave front.... cause she dun wanna us 2 b worried.... i cried too... cause i reali missed my cousin.... i vividly rmb... wad she had said... how she misses him so much.... misses her dearest son....although i'm not a mother... but i can understand her feelings.........................................................tt day... i was tinkin.. mayb... after she cried she will feel much better.... cause she has let out her feelins......2day..... she has left us.... 2 find cousin.... perhaps death may not be a bad thing.... at least.. it ends her sufferings.... it reali hurts me when i c her takin awful medicine... lyin on e bed... cause she's too weak 2 move ard....swollen legs and hands.... yellowish eyes n skin..... i reali feel like cryin.... mayb .... death is not tt bad.... but i reali dun wanna her 2 leave..... not oni me... uncle n my cousins too....my mum.....my aunties..... all these mths... they hav been takin turns 2 take care of her... even when they r so tired after work.... bcause all of them jus hopin 4 a miracle.... a way 2 save her..... a way 2 let her survive.... but i noe... miracles arent easy.....i still wanna say " cherish ur loved ones b4 it is too late"..................life is unexpected.... even if u young... u wont b guranteed wif a long life n good health.... ppl... i jus hope all of u.. take good care of urself....
Saturday, November 26, 2005